I just understood how sytenestesis works. Eg. some colour causes certain mood and some music causes the same mood. The brain is able to connect facts in a kind of reverse way. And that is why while hearing music I see the colour. And that is why I often connect facts that someone would not think of.

And that also makes sense why I prefer the top down level approach to thinking, and also that often ask question in a http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Reductio_ad_absurdum manner. Which makes people confused.

"Tak zwana świadomość zabija intuicję"

zauwazylam ze self awareness przeszkadza w skupieniu sie. nawyk samo obserwowania przeszkadza okropnie.

sometimes feeling too responsible for something is just a way to gain illusion of control over it. because the illusion of control beats the fear. but some things are just beyond our control, no matter how fearful they are.